Class Schedule, Orientation, & Beach Week.

It has been a while since I have wrote and posted. I definitely have posts just sitting and waiting to be published, but a lot of my writing from graduation is super personal. Personal enough that I am just not ready to share.

This summer has taken me out of the house, away from my computer, and into more states than I can count. I am very blessed to have had a pleasant mix of traveling, fun, and work.

Things kicked off with beach week. It was the best stress relief after such a long, difficult year. By far my favorite part of this summer... The week reconfirmed what I already knew. I like having my independence. I have the best friends a girl can ask for. I love DayGlow. Also, I have picked a perfect rooming situation for college. There are far too many pictures that are my "favorites" to post them all. Here is just one for share:

All four of us piled into the car.

Following that, I went to orientation. It was an.... interesting.... experience. Mostly, the sessions gave me information I already had heard. My roommate (for the night) never came home. Instead, she went to a frat party. Did I tell you that she woke up late and never registered for classes? On the other hand, I got into every single class I wanted. I contribute that to my quick typing fingers.

Schedule

Well, this is enough for one night. Trust me, there is plenty more, including my dorm shopping, color scheme coordinating, purple madness, Tennessee adventure, lake party fun. 

Till then,

Brittany

xoxox

Recap: Capturing the Precious Moments

No words needed. Except....

 

Jealousy is the worst. Check my grammar.... now :)

Brittany
xoxox

Catching up and Video

It has been forever since I have been on, checked in, and posted. When I logged in I realized that some of my posts never posted (because somehow, dum dum me, forgot to set the time schedule correctly). I will be uploading them after orientation next week. The post are as follows:

Notes to Brooke: The Final Message

Graduation: Pre-Thoughts

Graduation: Reflection

Pictures of Senior Year, Graduation, and More

Recap: Vacation, Orientation, Dorm Shopping, and Class Scheduling

Until then, here is a tiny teaser.

The huge audience approximating 5,000 people. Can you find my family? Photo Credit: Cindy Chamberlain

My parents had their own shirts and surprised me! Photo Credit: Chapelboro Newspaper

I was featured in the Herald-Sun which has direct information from an interview and a quote from my speech!

Oh, and I guess I just could not resist. I edited the graduation video that recorded my speech, and, for everyone who asked, here it is!

Enjoy!

xoxo,

Brittany

Notes to Brooke: Financial Aid and Update on Scholarships

I hate to ruin your hopes sissy, but you will probably get no financial aid. Sorry, boo.

But for everyone else, I applied and went through the process and this is what I can tell you. It is soo tedious and long.

You should start to fill out the forms in February and March. Use your taxes from last year and guessed-a-mate this years returns. They look at your assets, pay, land, pretty much everything. If you have a million dollar loan, make $90,000 a year but have a ton in assets that make up for everything when sold, they are gonna give you no financial aid most likely. I recommend everyone complete this no matter how you think your outcome will be. Why? because you may be surprised. Based off of your financial aid information they can give you grants, loans, or scholarships. Carolina gives out the covenant which is a full ride just for financial aid need-based.

The two types of forms that you should complete is the FASFA and Profile. I recommend doing both. They do cost a little bit to send off. Students, you are gonna get off the hook easy here. Your parents should really complete this themselves. Mine did. There was about ten questions she had to ask me out of all the millions they asked (okay... it wasn't a million but it sure felt like it.) Brace yourself. You will not complete this form in one sitting so do not wait until the last minute.

When accepted, between April and may is when financial info comes back. They will usually notify you via email that it is ready for viewing.

I have been answering some questions lately so here is a short update because I am sure others want to know too :)

What type of essay do you use for a college admissions or scholarship?

I use a narrative most times. It has dialogue and bring a sensory image to the readers mind, allowing them to recreate the picture in there heads. You want your reader to feel something. Make it stand out and grab their attention. Here is an piece of my scholarship and college admissions essay:

"Warm tears course down my cheeks, my make-up dissolving. I snap the phone shut, taking in the gut-wrenching news. She was dead.

            I remember one day in particular spent with Ella, a pediatric cancer patient I worked with while volunteering. Sitting in a chair, hooked up to a chemo IV drip, Ella fiddled with her iPod. As I approached her, my eyes met her piercing blue gaze. She gently tugged the headphones until they fell out. Taking the seat beside her, I politely asked, “What are we listening to today?”

“The new Miley Cyrus song,” she quickly replied. This is the typical music of a six-year old.

She shivered from the cold toxins that entered her blood, but she didn’t complain. Grabbing the blanket by her, covering up, she confidently questioned, “Like my new do?”

I noticed her blonde, curly locks turned into wispy strings, wildly spiked.

“You look gorgeous, as always!” I responded. I saw the chemo taking affect. Turning a slightly tinted green, Ella’s face showed signs of discomfort. Ella, determined to get through the treatment, put on a radiant smile. 

“Aren’t you ready to go home?” I curiously inquired.

             “Of course I am, but the medicine will be done soon, and I’ll be all better,” she voiced with assurance.

            After learning she died, I wanted to honor her memory by bringing more music into the lives of pediatric cancer patients. I searched for a charity, combining the aspects of cancer, children, and music." 

Cappex will also tell you your chances of getting into a college.

If you are employed, ask you employer if they have a scholarship.

Google scholarships and your city & state. There will be schools who post them online (that is a newsletter that says a ton of scholarships). Just because you don't go to the school, doesn't mean you cannot look over their scholarships. You may be able to apply to some of those. Use your resources.

Also, I was lucky to be caught in a weird situation. My school is in one county and my house address is in another. This allowed me to apply to scholarships in both countys.  So look for special circumstances you can spin in your favor like my example. 

Hope this answers some more questions.

xoxo,
Brittany 

Notes to Brooke: Scholarships

I have two words for you. Start. Early.

Fun Fact: They start offering scholarships beginning freshman year of high school for college. Example: the best buy scholarship (all four years in high school), Nordstrom (junior year)

What can you win a scholarship for?

You can win a scholarship based on Merit/Academic, Community Service, Financial, Hardship, and Miscellaneous. They even have a scholarship for height.

Where should I start looking for these scholarships at?

These are some great websites:
cfnc.com
fastweb.com
cappex.com

These websites are the ones I used the most. They ask a bunch of questions. Answer them all. They will then match you to scholarships. It works wonders. My counselor was my biggest source though. National scholarships application deadlines usually run between August to January where as local scholarships run from January to May. Also, look at the school you apply to. They have scholarships you can apply for.

Side Notes:

Read the requirements. Even if it says must demonstrate financial aid, if you can show it in any way, writing a little blurb, etc. still apply.
The little scholarships really add up. Trust me.
National scholarships will require more work because there will be more competition than local scholarships.
The essays you use for college applications you can also use for scholarships. They are gonna be so many that you will be overwhelmed. Be wise with your time.
Take the PSAT your junior year. This will allow you to qualify for national merit.
If there is an interview, take it. Always dress nice. My biggest thing and "secret" that won a scholarship for me was I would send a thank you note in the mail after speaking with anyone. I cannot tell you how many times people were blown away by that because no one else takes the time to do it.
Learn to sell yourself. No one else is going to advocate better for you than your own self. Who is gonna want you if you're not proud of yourself?
Become friends with your counselor. Mine will call me when she sees something that I can apply for because she knows I appreciate it and will do what she says.
Have a designated picture for scholarships. Headshot.
Build up your resume. I won nearly all of my $10,000 because of my volunteering.
Have 2 to 3 recommendations done and ready to send off.
Search for major store scholarships
If you have a disease or disorder, there is probably a scholarship for it.
Do not get discouraged. Letters will come in the mail more towards april.
Check your email often. Scholarship programs email a lot.


Fun fact: About one out of every five to ten scholarships you apply to you will win. I applied to approximately 40 scholarships.

Here is my list of scholarship to get you started:

North Carolina Jaycees Five Outstanding Teenagers Scholarship
Khols cares scholarship-Won store level
Eward Cathey masonic Scholarship
Hillsborough exchange club scholarship- DONE (month and year)
Richies spirit
Hillsborough Rotary Club Scholarship- Won
Visine Scholarship
best buy- WON
KFC- (heavy financial aid)
Florence kidder memorial- Won regional
ronald mcdonald scholarship- (heavy financial aid needed)
Burger King Scholarship- (heavy financial aid needed)
Elks Scholarship- Semi Finalist
Morehead Cain-UNC-CH
MLK Scholarship at UNC- WON
Lowes Scholarship
PEO scholarship
Robertson- Duke
Coca Cola- Semi Finalist
Principle leadership award
AXA achievement community scholarship- WON
Reagan Scholarship- (heavy financial aid required)
Doing good scholarship
Footlocker Scholarship- Athletics heavily required
cedar grove ruitan
hillsborough sertoma club
richard whitted- Creative Civitan Club- WON
hillsborough rotary club- WON
AFSA High School Senior Scholarship Contest

Hope this helps.

Brittany
xoxo

Notes to Brooke: Pick and apply to your College

Okay, so hear it goes.

One day soon, you are gonna have to go to college. Why? because you can't make a living other than working at McDonalds without a college degree. Sorry babe.

What to look for:

1. Location (how far do you want to be away? In state or out of state)
2. Money (how much is tuition, are they gonna give you a scholarship, can you apply for financial aid)
3. Student to teacher ratio (do you want a huge class or more personalized? personally, I wanted a lower ratio. It really mattered in my decision)
4. Girl to Boy ratio (do not base your decision off of this. But do decide if you want a co-ed school. Brooke, I know you. You will)
5. National Rank (I know this sounds crazy, but if you are only getting your bach. degree, a schools name can give you more credibility and more pay if well known. Take for example, we all know of UNC chapel hill. It is know around the states, not just in NC. But who would know of Leural College in NC? Yes, it is a real college. I looked it up.)
6. Sports (do you want to play in college? If so you need to register with clearing house. Coaches can't contact you for a certain period of time so you need to call them. Invite them to game.)
7. If you want to go to a post grad school, look at their acceptance rates. Statistics are your friends.
8. I am sure I can name off a longer list, but focus on what is important to you. You have to be there for four years so make sure you are happy.

How to get into these schools:

1. SAT Scores or ACT: look at what the average score is for acceptance. You need to try to at least be in that range, if not higher. These days, schools are relying less on this but it is still important. You need to take the SAT II if you submit your SAT to the college. The SAT II will be used for college placement. I suggest taking the Math II test.
2. Early Decision: if you are 100 percent sure of where you want to go, apply early decision. This is binding so be sure.
3. Early Action: this is different from early decision. It is not binding. You just know your decision or admissions status by Jan. instead of April.
4. Learn how to write an essay: In your case, Brooke, you need to attend Mr. Cox's workshops Junior year. He will still be there when you get there, god willing. He is amazing. Take his advice. I kill some narratives for scholarships and college essays because of him. Take AP English. It will be hard but do it. Also, reuse your essays for admissions essays and scholarships. Just tweek it to fit the prompt. You will not have time to crank on out for all of these applications.
5. Use your time wisely: You can start on college applications the summer before your senior year. You are gonna want to do that. Trust me. Don't submit. Just start. At least fill in the basics.
6. AP Testing: Pay the $85 for the AP test if you think you will do well. It will save you thousands in college. Promise. It will be used for placement as well and you can earn hours of credit.
7. Tour the schools: The best time would be the summer before senior year. Once you narrow it down, tour the top two again. You really need to narrow choices down to four schools tops. It gets expensive applying and is a ton of work. You can get a excused college visit once from the school.
8. Become friends with your counselors: She or he will need to proof your application before you submit it. Mrs. Ward is fabulous. I could not have done any of this without her. They are there to help you. MAKE THEM HELP!
9. Become friends with your teachers: You need at least two to write you a recommendation. These are important.
10. VOLUNTEER: I cannot stress enough how this has not only helped me getting into college but also getting scholarships. This was my one thing that caught someones attention and made me stand out.
11. Keep up your grades and GPA: this is common sense. Be a good student. Don't slack all the time.
12. Join clubs and be active in your school: I had a total of four activities (which is what colleges like to see) that I was super active in. Take on responsibility by holding an officer position.
13. Have an Interview if given the opportunity: this allows them to see who is becoming part of their community. Show who you are and your personality.
14. Use common App or Universal app if you are applying to like Wake, Duke, UNC, etc. There is a whole list and allows a common application to go to all of them and then all you have to do is a supplement for each school. It is so much easier.

This stuff does not happen over night. You have to work from the beginning.

Most of all, have fun.

Most college applications are due by October/Nov-ish. You find out in April most times. It is agonizing waiting. But when the letters come, and they will come, take pictures, document the time opening it. The feeling of getting accepted somewhere is one you can't replace. It will be super special. Time really will fly.

whew. I think that's all I have to say on picking, applying, and readying for college.

xoxo,
Brittany

The wait will be worth it.

I know I have not wrote in a very long time. But I have good reason. I promise. I have wrote, just not published. But more on that later.

Today, I have successfully wrote two graduation speeches and completed a very special gift to the class of 2012 for graduation day. To look over all of it, good and bad, has put me to tears at times. Good tears of course. I can't believe all the wonderful places we, the class of 2012, are going. It astonishes me that we have came this far and embarking on this new journey will only be the beginning. It saddens me that some of these people I may never speak to again. Of course, I hope that is not the case. On graduation day, I will be completely nervous (just hope I don't studder), emotional (hopefully, no tears for me), and happy that I have accomplished so much. This project has been so close to my heart and to reveal it to everyone, including my family who I have not shown, will be wonderful.

Recently, I accepted many awards at senior awards night as well as received a few more scholarships from the Civitan club. I am proud to say, I have raised approximately $10,000 to go towards my college expenses. I have also finished high school. Now all I have to do is graduate.

This weekend, on Sunday, I graduate from NCSSM where I will also be speaking. Sunday is also our soccer banquet. Monday, I have my last scholarship dinner. Friday after that is Orange's Graduation. Saturday is my family and adult graduation party to celebrate all the adults in my life who have helped me this far. I am proud to say we had to cater because there were so many people coming. Fifty approximately. I am so blessed with all the people in my life who love me. And Sunday, I leave for a much deserved vacation. So many "last's" but truly only the beginning.

Now, I previously said I was writing. Well, I did not lie. Next week, there will be a blog post everyday in dedication to my sister, Brooke. I will miss you more than words could ever say. I wanted you to have something you could save forever, look back on, and use. These next couple days will give you just that. I love you, baby girl! Please stay tuned for the series, "Notes to Brooke". Everyday will be a new helpful topic for high school and soon to be college students. But one day will be just what I wrote, a note to Brooke.

Oh, and I promise there will be tons of pictures in one of next weeks post. From this year especially. I know I have been slacking on that front.

xoxo,
Brittany

Re(live)

I use this title because not only is it our yearbook theme this year but also it is what I have done the past couple of weeks.

As I am beginning to write all of my speeches for the various events, gathering presents for all of the people who are important and mean something to me, building up my excitement, and, of course, coordinating my attire for everything, I am slowly reliving all of my memories from high school. Some good, and some not so great. Some that make me sad & teary-eyed. Some that make me grin from ear to ear. Yes, changing some things would have made my time in high school much easier. But the truth is, my life, my time in high school, and much more and farther beyond that, has made me the strong, independent, capable, level-headed, optimistic, (so many more adjectives, insert here) woman I am today. I am super excited to take on the next few weeks and, soon, to turn the page on this chapter and into the next.

Inspiration has came from everywhere lately. My latest and biggest inspiration was found listening to the radio while driving to school. Immediately, I clicked voice record on my phone, and I began recording myself saying my future speech. It is all just falling into place.

Quick event recap!

1. The mailman brought my laptop for college today! I have picked out my bedding! And bought some craft supplies for our wall decor!

2. I got my new check card and UNC checks in the Mail!

3. I proudly voted for the first time.

4. I won the Rotary Scholarship after having an interview! And just this morning went to the scholarship breakfast where I was honored as well as five other people. Another $1,000 closer!

5. I also won another scholarship worth $1,500!!! I am not sure which scholarship it is exactly. This is all off of my counselor's information to me. Of course, she won't tell me too many details.

6. I sent out all of my graduation invitations!! I am now working on a couple games for the cookout for family and adult friends. Including a "how well do you know the graduate" survey, signing book & well wishes, and guess how much.... is in the jar. I may even do center pieces for the tables... But then again, I may be getting carried away with my excitement.

7. I got my yearbook today and my family surprised me with a little note. SO sweet.

8. Soccer has ended... Unfortunately. But I have still spent a night, here & there, with the girls each week. I am continuing to run 3 to 4 mi a day. Staying in shape.

9. I am done with all of my exams for the collegeboard and high school!!! *cheer here*

Everything has happened so quickly. And time has truly flown by. Bittersweet. But exciting also. I have so many pictures to add. I will be going back and updating this and previous posts with photos. I hope you all have a safe and amazing weekend.

Brittany
xoxo

Dedication, hardwork, love, but most of all family

These are all the words I would use to describe my spectacular varsity women's soccer team. But more on that in a bit.

Quick recap and celebration from the past two weeks:

1. I won the Student of the Year Hillsborough Exchange Scholarship!! This now gives me an additional $1,000 to $1,500 on top of the already $500 I won last month as Student of the Month. I will now be competing at states.

2. I scored my first soccer goal in all four years I have played soccer. It was not gorgeous, but it counted on the score board for my team.

3. I have picked out a picture for all of my graduation invitations. Another personal aspect of the invitations is I designed my very first invitation by myself in Photoshop. I think they look great!! Very me. I have also made all of my appointments for the day of graduation!!

4. My roommate and I picked out our room color scheme. Purple, Black, White, & Silver are our colors. Already looking for my bedding set.

5. I am gathering addresses, stuffing envelopes, and all that craziness to hopefully get graduation invites out by this weekend. I have decided on a formal theme (the font, colors, way they are addressed, etc)

6. I applied yesterday to this awesome program called Carolina Kickoff! It is a huge party the first three days before school starts where we learn chants, learn more about the campus, and meet new people. It is by application and only 500 people get to apply and then 150 are chosen.

7. I opened my college checking account today! And I now have Carolina Checks!!!!

8. May 1st I was given the opportunity to interview for a local scholarship worth $1,000. I think it went great!! I am very grateful for the chance to speak about how much this money can help me. Hopefully, I win. Who doesn't love to win?!?!

9. I won $5 on my first lottery ticket!!!

And Lastly, but certainly, not the least:

10. Tomorrow is senior night for soccer. It is crazy to think that time has gone by this fast. It will be our last regular season game at home and for the season. We will continue to go onto playoffs. Warning, I will be crying tomorrow. After four years, you guys are my family and I love you all. We got our senior night shirts and I swear I was about to just bawl then. So on that note, because I will be a reck, I want to make sure each of you know how much you mean to me. Below, you will find a note addressed to all of you. I mean every word of it. And remember, no matter what happens, I love you all to pieces.

Seniors:
Katie "Bum"- Where do I even begin. We have played all four years together, and both went through a pretty traumatic concussion spell. I love to think of you as the team "rock". You are always calm on the field and keep us in high spirits. You listen well to everyone on the team and pump us up. You are by far one of the most talented soccer players I know. I will miss you so much! But I am sure we will keep in touch. You are gonna kick butt at Gardner Webb in their Nursing Program and possibly playing soccer there. Don't change. Love you.

Mia- Girl, I feel like you have either been sick or dealing with shin splints most of the season. But that never stopped you. I remember the goal at Cedar Ridge where you made the shot and then went down with a pulled/strained quad. All you thought about through the pain was you made that shot. Admirable. Tenacity. So many words that could never cover it. You are beautiful and will do amazing in whatever you decide to do. I will miss the slaps on the butt during practices or you telling me I look "hott" with my skirt tight around my tush. I love you.

Brooke- We were friends way before soccer even happened. You were always the one to extend a helping hand to me. Or offer me a place to sleep. Or just say a kind word. I remember carpooling before we could even drive. Your kindness will go a long way. And lets not forget that fight you bring to the field every night. This year was definitely your year in soccer. I will miss you very much. Love you.

Tatiana: Well, we have had our differences, I admit. We have at times been each others worst critic and enemy. But this year, things felt like they changed a lot. I saw a different side of you. A gentle one. But yet, I saw some of our similarities. We both keep our guard up to protect ourselves. I remember car rides. And of course Charlotte. Picking clothes out for me. You have stepped up playing defense and your touch has greatly improved. I am so proud of you and love you very much.

Juniors:

Natalie: I could say so much. But I know space just will not permit. The shirts last year. The only person who came and helped that was an underclassman. You were just awesome. You remain a strong voice (and leg) on our team. Your speed has dramatically increased. You have saved my butt countless times the past four years. Many times afterwards followed with frustration. But it only made me want to be better for my team. I will not be surprised to see you as a captain next year. Thank you for everything you have done this year to make this night special for our seniors. You are gonna have an awesome senior year overseas next year and I can't wait to come cheer you on! Love you.

Madison: You really stepped it up this year and took over as goalie. Every game I see how hard you play, diving for every ball. You are also becoming more active in the communication on the field. A strong voice like yours has a lot of sway with our team. I will always be there for you after every game. Never doubt that. I will not be surprised next year when I see you getting into all these ivy league schools. I love you.

Devon: I must say, I have always admired the fight, hustle, & will to win in you. You attack every single ball. I have never seen you even ask to be sat out because you were tired. You inspire me Devon Allen (please don't cry). You have overcame some of the biggest obstacles in life. So I say this with no doubt, you are gonna be life changing for this world, and you are going to do great things. Don't you ever let anyone put you down. I love you!

Sweet MJ: You have always been the reliable mid-fielder who will come back if I need help on D or help on offense. Your will to fight and play even though you may be injured does not go unnoticed. Although you may not like this, you remind me a lot of your sister. I adore your lovely curly locks. Miss you tons already. Love you even more.

Viviane: Frenchy!! You are the cutest and stylish person if I have ever saw one! You have been an awesome mid-fielder and defender. You have great foot skills and can fake any person out on the field. I love your happy spirit. It raises mine on my worst days. I also love the sass. It is the best combination. I couldn't dream of a soccer team without you being a part of it. Love you.

Sophomores:

Ashley "Blake": It makes me so sad that you have been so sick this season. I have missed you greatly each day on the field. But when you are on the field, you leave it all out there. You give everything you have for our team and there is nothing greater than seeing that. We, and I, could not be more proud of you. Love you.

Grace: You make me laugh. Soo much. You know I have to say something about the pants. But it is the cutest thing and you are such a great sport about it. Even though I pick, please know I love you more than anything. I cherish our conversations and you are becoming such an awesome outside middie. Your communication is recognized throughout our field. I will miss you!! Love you. Don't pee, ok?

Haley: You were always the stylish one with your cowboy boots and dress. But there is one thing you did for me that I will never ever forget as long as I live. It still puts me to tears as I sit here and think about it. The day after I accepted Carolina, I was really nervous, worried, confused, and plain out scared. You wrote me a note, with some bible verses. That note, the fact you took a second just to tell me, to do something soo nice for me out of all people, made me feel amazing. Made me realize that I did have god and everything would still go as planned even though Carolina was not my top choice. I can never say thank you enough. I hope you feel better and that your foot heals quickly. I love you, so much!

Hannah: You have a killer left foot. No matter what angle you are at, you can nail that shot right into the corner. So jealous. Don't forget you will always be our toucan!! Keep kicking butt and taking names! Love you!

Summer: Although you joined our team later into the season, you have really stepped up and provided the support we needed as a team. I am glad it was you who joined us and not someone else. I know leaving JV where all your friends are was a huge step but we could have never made it this far without you. Thank you. I love you.

Tallie: You too with the butt grabbing ;) You are fierce! All of your shots on goal are quality. You have taken us from losing to a tie or even winning a game. You are going to be a real game changing player these next two years for Orange. I cannot wait to watch you. And, of course say, that's my friend!!!! Love you, Tallie.

Freshman:

Rachel: You are SO talented. I have never played with anyone who wants that goal more. You foot skills are off the chain. You keep a nice flow through the center of play and set our team up for a great number of shots at goal. I am not surprised you are the highest scorer on our team. And I will not be surprised if you end up in the Olympics or playing for UNC. I can't wait to see how you transform as a player. You are a huge asset to Orange's team. Love you.

Megan: You are the toughest person I know. And so sweet!!! I don't get how someone so small can knock someone over and then be like, "I'm so sorry! Are you okay?" I love it. I know you hate us touching your butt, but your reaction is so cute. And MJ & your little facebook battle, glad there were no "consequences". Keep knocking them over. You have the power of underestimation. They will never expect it, but watch out here comes Megan!!! Love you!!

Lexi: You have really stepped up this year. Thank you for the texts always saying how you would miss me if I was gone a day or something. It means a ton!! You are awesome marking the field up and getting the ball away from a player on the opposing team. You are gonna be a fabulous and permanent addition to the varsity team next year. Keep up the good work and always believe in yourself. Love you.

Muah, Muah, Muah. I love you all. I wish I could just gush longer over how much you all mean, but I have to sleep sometime right?!? I cannot wait to spend tomorrow with you guys celebrating and kicking some tail!!! You guys are my family and always will be. Never forget, no matter what, I am here for every one of you! Love you.

xoxo,
Brittany

Belated Birthday Present

Today, my game was rained out, I took the hardest biology test I have yet to encounter, and to top it all off I had a headache most of the day. So, as I recalled my day on the way home, it sucked for a lack of better words. But that one sheet of paper in the mail box changed it all.

A couple months ago, I was notified I was a semi-finalist for the AXA Community Achievement Scholarship (you can read about it here). I filled out all of the paperwork and mailed it off. I had completely forgot that they let me know if I had won in late April. So, as I open the mailbox, take out a stack full of envelopes, sit back in my car, flip through, searching for my name, I see this envelope addressed from AXA. In tiny print, it says "Ms. Britany Nicoll Smith". The first thing I notice is the envelope is made of a nice heavy weight paper. Kind of like card stock. Instantly, I think, "great, another thing to ruin my day. Another rejection letter." After all, it was a highly competitive national scholarship for... wait for it... $2,000..

As I open the letter, this is what I read, that magic word that makes your heart stop for just an instant.... "Congratulation!"

My Beautiful Letter

Of course, this put an instant smile on my face. Who wouldn't smile after being given $2,000?!?

Pretty smile, and new jeans that actually fit, Yay!

Love,
Brittany
xoxo

Big Day!

On the way home from work at 2 am, it was pouring. Hillsborough was completely blacked out with a cop at every corner. The rain pounded on my windshield as I slowly drove home. At two in the morning on my birthday, it was beautiful. My favorite kind of weather. Peaceful. Dark. Just how I like it, minus the cops.

Today has been more than I could have ever have asked for. I was surrounded by family and friends who came home from college to visit me. Enjoyed great food. It was relaxing and peaceful.

At the end of the day, after an amazing nap, I logged on to see a plethora of posts from tons of people. For me, birthdays are not about presents. That means nothing. It is about the love, the people who care about you. Today, I once again realized how blessed, lucky, completely humbled I am. I could not have dreamed of better people to be around. To share my life with. So, thank you. Thank you for being there, through the good and bad. For loving me at the worst times. And just taking two seconds to say a kind word and make me feel wonderful. I know it is easy to just skip a text message or phone call. I surely have done my fair share. So thank you! God is amazing for sure.

Last night, as I was leaving the Carolina Inn, Kelly said "North Carolina has the best hospitality. So many kind people." I could not agree more with her. Thank you for sharing my big day, and many more to hopefully come. Can't wait to share it all with you guys in June too.

Love always,
Brittany
xoxo

There no possible way that I am...

... Going to be eighteen in 3 hours. Well it actually won't be real until 8:05 am. But, ya know.

It completely does not feel like I am eighteen or any older. I am really excited. On my way to work this evening, I scouted out a 24 hour gas station. So, on my way home, I can buy my first lottery ticket. Hopefully, I'll be carded. As I spend the evening with two beautiful baby boys (I am babysitting), it blows my mind to think that I was once that small. Time has flew by and, before I know it, I won't be eighteen either. I'll be older and grown. Crazy to think about.

To get to the chapel for the wedding, we took a shuttle. Jill, a mother of one of the boys, asked what interesting things were going on and I told her before the night was over, I will be officially an adult. Her husband goes, "oh, I can buy you your first shot." Everyone quickly corrected him and told him I was talking about eighteen and not twenty one.

I am happy to spend tomorrow surrounded by my family and a couple close friends. This year, I will not be doing anything big. Rather, I am saving my celebration for the beach with my four amazing friends. Since we live so far apart, we will be celebrating several birthdays, graduations, scholarships, and successes that week. Thank you everyone for the kind thoughts, prayers and wishes. As I journey onto the next chapter in my life and the next year, I couldn't have asked for better people and support group to spend it with . Truly blessed and thankful for gods gift of life, family, and love.

Brittany
Xoxo

Two Week Recap!

Are you ready? Because there is lots to share. Ready, Set, Go!

1. Last Week, on Thursday night, I attended a scholarship dinner for the Hillsborough Exchange Club. In addition to enjoying some chicken and dumplings (typical southern food), I also was awarded a $500 scholarship and allowed to interview for another $1,000. I am very honored and grateful for this opportunity. In addition, the craziest thing happened, but I can't spill all my secrets now. Wait until June when I write my "Notes to Brooke" to find out the secret in this scholarship success.

2. I have got my voter's registration card in the mail! It is crazy to think that this Sunday, I will be eighteen years old and I will be able to go buy a lottery ticket or vote. Holy Cow! It seems to have all gotten here so quickly.

3. Today is my Friday, and, tomorrow, I will be touring Carolina. I am super excited because I have never really stepped foot in Chapel Hill or on Campus or even on Franklin Street. As we planned out our agenda, I realized there was so much I wanted (or maybe needed) to do that I would not have enough time in the day. I may just have to make a side trip to see some wonderful friends who will show me around more. I can't wait to share with everyone this experience.

4. Tomorrow I will also be working a wedding. Babysitter Brittany to the rescue. No, but seriously, this wedding is going to be gorgeous. My teacher's son (who works in the white house, crazy right?) is marrying his college sweetheart right where they met. They have been planning it for over three years and it is color schemed, themed, and all that crazy really neat organizational things.

5. My roommate and me have picked out our top three choices for where we want to live. Although they are not ordered, we have chosen Morrison, Craige, and Koury. I feel like I am saying exciting so much, but it really is exciting!!!

6. My cap and gown came in!!! Along with the beautiful invitations. I am getting my cap and gown pictures taken this weekend with the beautiful Celeste! We are hoping to provide a little something in each invitation as a memory keepsake. The process of gathering addresses from everyone in my family, friends, and past teachers is time consuming. I have decided that I don't have the nicest handwriting, and, instead of writing addresses, I will be using a pretty cursive font to address each invitation. I am hoping to get all invites out by early to mid May.

7. Graduation celebrations have also been decided. I can't wait to share my plans with you once invitations go out.

8. I am honored to say that I was given an interview for the Rotary Scholarship. This is worth a $1,000 and would really help me pay for college. It is May 1st. Wish me luck!

9. As of last week, I have applied to over thirty scholarships. That is a ton! As scholarship notices start rolling in (late april and may are decision time for those types of things), I am hoping all the hard work will pay off.

10. My last quarter grades came out and I am on track of keeping a perfect GPA for this semester. For all the work I have put in, my stress level has been moderate. I actually have nails now! I have even had... wait for it... free time!!!

11. I almost forgot this, but I couldn't stop thinking about it all day, so I don't know how. Last night, I was "player of the game" for my team. This is a little reward our coach gives out to a player who really hustles and makes a difference for the team that game. So as coach handed me the cookie and slip of paper after the game, I was extremely shocked. Yes, I had played well... I guess. I had six shots come to find out (one off of a breakaway and I am definitely not the fastest player), a nice save on defense to keep the other team from scoring in the last 1 min :20 sec, played two positions, and, she says I had good communication. As I am hearing this, I automatically thought of everyone else on my team who put it out there and worked hard. I never thought of myself (did not even register that I had more than one shot or even a save). I am very grateful for the award. I am enjoying learning how to play striker. I love my team and every person on it. Great game last night. Can't wait to be on the blog!

So as you take all this in, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for supporting me, caring for me, loving me, and encouraging me.

Brittany
xoxo

Committing the Next Four Years of my Life To....

Drum Roll, Please!!!

**dadadadada** University of North Carolina Chapel Hill **Cheers!**

That's right, I will be a Tarheel fan next year and three years after that!!! After many conversations with many people, visits, thinking, working the numbers, this was the best choice for my future and me. It is definitely scary to commit to something, and, goodness knows, I have been putting this off. Lately, I have found a great deal of reassurance in the fact this is gods plan and path for me.

I have been "roommated up" too!!! (You know, like "boo'ed up"?) And it is with one of my best friends, Jordan. I am super excited! My mom was like, "time to pick out a color scheme." The fact that both of us have never really decorated a room fully with a color scheme and etc, and, now we get to, is really exciting. My dad is now wanting UNC season tickets! I am going to officially tour on April 20th!

Some huge factors in my decision is, UNC is still close to a hospital, it is larger university, in the city, and, academically, I feel I can still strive to be at the top of my class. I am super excited to say I also plan on pledging at UNC. And soon I will be picking classes. Wow. A lot to take in!

Anyways, I am happy. And I hope you can share in this happiness with me.

Brittany
xoxo

Happiness.

I title this post one word because that's how I feel right now. Honestly. Although it may be a little deceiving, it's true. I am one happy individual!

No, I will not be a little devil next year. And no, I am not sad, disappointed, needing hugs, or any of that negative stuff. I am very excited and feeling a little challenged.

I have two renowned school to choose from that offer me two very different avenues. Wake Forest University offers me acceptance into medical school my sophomore year with no MCATs as well as free study abroad opportunities. I find out mid April if I have won a scholarship there. The cost to go to wake is more than duke... $58,000 to be exact... Chapel Hill offers me credits for almost every AP exam I have taken. That would make me a sophomore there. They are also mid city and I love the city. I don't like how the teacher and student interaction is not one on one as much and wake does offer me that.

I have so tough decisions and my work cut out for me. So, I have no tears for duke. As I told my mom at 5:50 when she asked me if I really wanted to know:
"what is meant to happen, will happen, and either way, I am going big places. I've done all I could do without stalking them (duke). I've tried my best and that's enough for me."

I want to take a moment to say something and to me, this is the most important part of this post. Last night, the out reach of support I felt was amazing, and such an inspiration. A really good friend of mine who I volunteer with emailed me expressing how I was his role model and how he admired me. It was a very personal and emotional message for me that even made me cry. I don't think of myself as someone important, but the fact that so many people care for me and love me truly humbles me. I am so grateful and blessed and speechless for the amazing support group I have that include family, friends, coworkers, fellow volunteers and just people who know my family. I couldn't have gotten this far without you. I really mean it. I wish I could personally tell everyone how grateful I am for their support during this time in my life but I never realized till now how many people cared. A special thanks to my soccer team who dealt with my rage on the field tonight and gave me huge hugs after we won 6 to 1.

I also had another thing happen last night that was really touching. I had a friend realize that this is gods plan for his life not his plan. The even bigger thing was my blog helped him realize this. I really believe this is what god wants for me.

I love you all. Smile.

Brittany
Xoxo

Wanted: My Reflection on the Coming Day

Do you know what it feels like to want to be wanted?

Kinda feeling like that right now. Thursday, when I open my inbox, I hope a "big" envelope is waiting for me. I hope Duke wants me. Who doesn't want to be wanted?

And if the big envelope just doesn't exist for me? Well, I'll be crushed, not gonna lie. I've worked for this moment for years now. 

 

But let's face reality, I'll be over it in a day or two. It isn't gonna be the end of my existence or the world. I've been accepted in some of the top schools. I have a bright future ahead of me and a top notch education waiting for me. I'll be happy anywhere and i'll do great anywhere. (am I trying to convince myself or you guys...?)

No, but, seriously, the duration between November and now has really helped me come to terms with what is meant to be will be. It has also helped me see things clearly.

I'm excited, but prepared. I admit I had a fighting shot. I have it all. My SAT scores aren't the greatest... But I had a chance. I also admit I do not believe I will get in. I hope I can tell you different on Thursday. But until then, I plan on not emotionally investing myself and wading out this dreadful wait.

Much love,

Brittany

Xoxo

Spill the Beans Already!

5 Days until I leave for spring break!
3 Days until I hear back from Duke!
27 Days until I turn 18!!! (read below)
40 Days until my first final exam!

Yesterday, in the mail, I received my voter registration card. This is super exciting for me because, this year, I will be able to vote. Crazy, right?!?! Everything seems to be happening so quickly and the days are flying by. I can't even believe that there is less than 3 months left till graduation!

I won my third scholarship! It was worth $500, but I have a chance at $1,500 after writing an essay. I will be going to dinner with the committee on April 12th. I now have earned $1,600 for college (that makes $43,000 more I have to pay....). So exciting.

This week, in less than a day or two, I read the entire Hunger Games. And I saw the movie. While I really enjoyed the plot of the book, I was sad to see it turned into more of a romance... I do recommend for everyone to read it. The book was definitely better than the movie. The movie rushed character development where as the book made the characters have depth, made them complex, and more life-like. I am starting on the second book soo we will see. 

In my game last night, we kicked butt and beat Northern Vance 3 to 1 points. Check out Coach Hunters blog later in the week for a play by play. While at the game, I got to talking with one of my teammates, and she expressed her impending sadness about not having soccer next year at this time because of college. It really hit me that this is my last year and to fully enjoy it. We have an awesome team, which I have probably overly stressed. All of the players I feel close to and we care for each other, like sisters. It is a special bond with amazing talent that I have never seen in all four years of playing in high school. Although I am excited for Senior Night, I will really miss these girls.

Thursday at approximately 6 pm, I will receive my decision from Duke. At this time, I will be in the middle of a soccer game so I won't truly know until I get home. It has really been bugging me to know all week now that it has been "decided". I honestly don't believe I will get in, but more on that tomorrow. (Can you believe I have already written tomorrow post???)

Till  Then,
 Brittany xoxo

Cheers! Party! Celebration!!!

So,

This is gonna be short, sweet, and straight to the point because I am nasty and sweaty from my game (and personally, I don't prefer to be like that...).

ONE!!! My soccer team won their first conference game today. It was a complete shut out. We played awesome and looked awesome!

Two!! I won my second scholarship!! It was regionally so I got $100 (hey, but every little bit counts!) and I get to go to states. It is the Florence Kidder Memorial Scholarship. The essay was based on history so I am very surprised I even won. I am not a history person at all. Very grateful!

Like how I used the napkin to block out concealed information? Creative!!

Off to shower!
Brittany xoxo

Just Keep Writing...

It's been a while since I last updated. I am a big believer in negative first and twice as many positives after, so here it goes!

Negative Nellie:
1. Two financial based scholarships are a no go. They were pretty big in size.
2. Carolina will be giving me NO financial aid for next school year. Yeah, that was a big bummer.

Positive Polly:
1. I mailed off two more scholarships today! And mailed out a finalist application for $2,000 on Monday. My odds for the $2,000 looks good (We all know I like Stats, so here it comes....) From last year, the state picks twelve people by branch, Raleigh won two awards and Durham won two! That was the majority from all over the state. Hopefully, I can be in the majority too!
2. Soccer is doing Secret Soccer Buddies (Coach Hunter's Brilliant Idea!). And I LOVE it. When I have a not so great day, I find cheer in the cute notes and sweet gifts. I have an wonderful buddy! And I can't wait to find out who it is at the end of the season!

3. One Tuesday Night, we played Cedar Ridge, our rivals. We, by far, dominated the game (even though the score did not reflect it). We took a ton of shots and our goals were of high quality. I really love this years varsity team. We vibe well together and have a huge amount of talent and potential. If you would like to follow the games closer, check out our coaches blog here:

http://orangehighgirlssoccer.blogspot.com/

4. This week, I have had an abnormal amount of time away from school which has been nice to catch up on sleep. Monday I got to leave at 1ish and today I left at 12ish. I have been feeling awesome and refreshed (yet, tired) health wise and have not had huge headaches which has been a BIG plus. 

Anywho, thank you for the outpouring support and love. It means so much and I greatly appreciate it!

P.S. I am slowly still working on my surprise. Taking a lot of time. 

Love,

Brittany xoxo

Good Things Really Do Happen!

After finding the perfect dress last night, I did not think my week could have gotten any better. I was estatic.

Well, it just got better!!!! And I am not speechless!

I just won the Best Buy Scholarship!!! It is worth $1,000!!! Although it is not a lot of money, it will make a tiny dent in my college cost and it gave me that confidence boost I needed. Makes me feel like filling out 20 some scholarships is actually worth it and that I should keep pushing through, filling out more. Wow... a lot to take in.

Part of this requires me to be "published" or "press released"... Isn't that awesome, kinda?

Brittany xoxo

Counting the days down... It's pure beauty!

One month until I hear from Duke.
One month and 22 days until my birthday (18, whoop, whoop!)
One month and 16 days till Orange's Prom

But in other news, my online school is having a prom and, needless to say, it is going to be far more extraordinary than Orange's Prom. And I would be able to be there with my best friend!!! So, it is exciting.

Guess what is even more exciting?!?! I have finally found my graduation dress. Forget prom dresses. I am absolutely in love. It is perfect in every way and my style in a dress. And most importantly, I feel beautiful in it, like every girl should feel in a killer outfit. So the deal is sealed. I am not revealing what it looks like or which one I chose because I want to be the only one wearing it. Hehehe :)

All week long it has rained. That has sucked because all of my soccer games have been cancelled. This year is going to be awesome. We have a great team and we are definitely in great shape, running 15 miles this week. Our wonderful coach will be blogging about us and I will share that link after the first game!

I apologize for being away from the blog this week. Honestly, writing nightly keeps me focused on the positive going on, keeps me looking forward, and keeps me excited. It is always great to hear someone say, "I read last night and really enjoyed it." Always brightens my day.

Last thing before I sign off, I may just be working on a new project. Time permitting. Get excited! Because hopefully, by next week, I can share it with you!!! 

Brittany xoxox

First Snow!

I have really been slacking (like always..). Varsity soccer has kept me going. A few nights ago (Sunday, I believe), it snowed. Not a lot or anything, about 1 or 2 inches. It melted the next morning, but it was special because it was Sophie's first snow! And she loved it.

At first she just sat and stared.

Then, she went wondering..

She came in covered in snow. It was so awesome watching her enjoy it all. Anyways, that's enough for one night.

Sweet Dreams,
Brittany xoxox

Bittersweet Analogy

If you met me two years ago, I was weak. I was fragile. I was really naive. I was crushed emotionally by the smallest things. I wasn't the same person then that I am now. I believe, with time, everything can change. Why? Because I surely have changed. I like to think I am stronger, smarter (still naive at times though, but aren't we all?), and emotionally stable and guarded. Two years ago, I would have completely been invested in one thing. And when it didn't work out, I would have been crushed for months... Heartbroken. Now, I have a mentality of "what will be, will be." Meaning, what is meant to happen to me, meant to be apart of my life, will find it's way into my life. So when I say this next part, please understand, I am completely fine. I haven't shed a single tear over it. I actually still find myself very lucky (will explain why I feel that way later).

Scholarships are kinda like relationships.
You meet a guy. You work really hard to impress him, make him like you. You see a scholarship. You work really hard to write about how awesome you are.
With a guy, you have to shew away the other "women". With scholarships, you have to beat the other contestants.
With a guy, you constantly wait for that text or call. With scholarships, you are constantly refreshing your email.
When something doesn't go your way with a guy, you feel rejected. When things don't go your way with scholarships, you lose $10,000 that you never really had to begin with.
When your friends ask about the guy or that guy texts you apologizing, you type millions of text messages trying to say something back, but erase them all because they are either mean or you feel ashamed. When your friends ask you about the scholarship, you say "I haven't heard yet." or "It just wasn't for me."
With a guy, you learn from your mistakes, realize you are still awesome, and move on because there are plenty of fish in the sea and you will find your one person. With a scholarship, you move on because money is out there for college. You realize there are other scholarships and you are awesome!

Moral of the story, all these things happen in life, whether it is a scholarship or a guy. Simply put, it is how you handle it and respond to these things that make you who you are and shapes you as a person.

Friday, at approximately 6 pm, I heard from Coca Cola. I did not win the Coca Cola Scholarship. And you know what? That is perfectly okay. I am still applying and I am still up for many huge scholarships. I feel lucky to have been one of the 2,200 people out of 84,000 people who made it to the second round.

As I continue this journey down the path of college and discovering who I am, I realize I like what I am seeing. I realize I have so much more to learn, to experience, and so many opportunities going for me. Time tells all. (Too bad I am the most impatient person ever...).

Much love and no regret,
Brittany xoxo

Feel the Burn

I promise I have a fantastic excuse for not blogging as much this week. In all honesty, there is so much I want to share.

Coca Cola contacted me! And said that they will be sending out email/letters later this week!! They had so many highly qualified applicants that they needed more time to make the decision.

Additionally, I submitted three other scholarships this week,

KFC
Doing Good
and
Richie Spirit

I am up to 15 scholarships submitted now.

And I AM A FINALIST!!! WOO HOO! It is for the Axa Community Achievement Scholarship. They reward $2,000 to 12 people per branch per state. Last year, two people in Durham won! I have to submit my materials by March and hear back in late April.

This entire week has been soccer tryouts at my high school. As many of you may know, I am completely and utterly in love with some soccer. This, unfortunately, will be my last year playing. For the first time, I believe my school will have a Varsity and JV team. My calves and shoulders are definitely sore and I have most definitely felt the "burn".

So many exciting adventures I am being able to experience. I am lucky, and I am very blessed.

Excited to share,
Brittany

Eleven Percent. That isn’t as much as you think.

I’ve been slacking keeping up with blog posts. But you guys haven't! Officially reached 500 views (540 to be exact!)

Honestly, I have been waiting. On the mailman. How silly is that? I have noticed lately, everything that is important to me mail wise (i.e. college acceptance letters) take ages to get to me. 

Because I have yet to receive a letter from coca cola, I went back and read the fine print. One piece of paper says February 10^th. Another says early February. They all say everyone is notified (And I confirmed that by asking a parent who had a kid who won and another kid who didn’t. They both got a letter). But only 250 out of 2,200 people get it. That is 11 percent. What?!?! I just want to say, either the mailman is snail-slow lately or coca cola needs to get on the ball because I can’t wait any longer. This letter would guarantee me between $10,000 to $20,000 (holy cow, what a dent that could make in my expenses). So, whenever I find out, I will be sure to share. Hope it is soon…. 

 

Lately, I have been obsessed with my new photoshop program. I have been focusing on the eyes, bags, lashes, teeth, and blimishes. It is surprisingly fun (most likely because it is new). Above is one of my favorite images.

Hope you enjoyed my little chat,

Brittany