Wanted: My Reflection on the Coming Day

Do you know what it feels like to want to be wanted?

Kinda feeling like that right now. Thursday, when I open my inbox, I hope a "big" envelope is waiting for me. I hope Duke wants me. Who doesn't want to be wanted?

And if the big envelope just doesn't exist for me? Well, I'll be crushed, not gonna lie. I've worked for this moment for years now. 

 

But let's face reality, I'll be over it in a day or two. It isn't gonna be the end of my existence or the world. I've been accepted in some of the top schools. I have a bright future ahead of me and a top notch education waiting for me. I'll be happy anywhere and i'll do great anywhere. (am I trying to convince myself or you guys...?)

No, but, seriously, the duration between November and now has really helped me come to terms with what is meant to be will be. It has also helped me see things clearly.

I'm excited, but prepared. I admit I had a fighting shot. I have it all. My SAT scores aren't the greatest... But I had a chance. I also admit I do not believe I will get in. I hope I can tell you different on Thursday. But until then, I plan on not emotionally investing myself and wading out this dreadful wait.

Much love,

Brittany

Xoxo