Happiness.

I title this post one word because that's how I feel right now. Honestly. Although it may be a little deceiving, it's true. I am one happy individual!

No, I will not be a little devil next year. And no, I am not sad, disappointed, needing hugs, or any of that negative stuff. I am very excited and feeling a little challenged.

I have two renowned school to choose from that offer me two very different avenues. Wake Forest University offers me acceptance into medical school my sophomore year with no MCATs as well as free study abroad opportunities. I find out mid April if I have won a scholarship there. The cost to go to wake is more than duke... $58,000 to be exact... Chapel Hill offers me credits for almost every AP exam I have taken. That would make me a sophomore there. They are also mid city and I love the city. I don't like how the teacher and student interaction is not one on one as much and wake does offer me that.

I have so tough decisions and my work cut out for me. So, I have no tears for duke. As I told my mom at 5:50 when she asked me if I really wanted to know:
"what is meant to happen, will happen, and either way, I am going big places. I've done all I could do without stalking them (duke). I've tried my best and that's enough for me."

I want to take a moment to say something and to me, this is the most important part of this post. Last night, the out reach of support I felt was amazing, and such an inspiration. A really good friend of mine who I volunteer with emailed me expressing how I was his role model and how he admired me. It was a very personal and emotional message for me that even made me cry. I don't think of myself as someone important, but the fact that so many people care for me and love me truly humbles me. I am so grateful and blessed and speechless for the amazing support group I have that include family, friends, coworkers, fellow volunteers and just people who know my family. I couldn't have gotten this far without you. I really mean it. I wish I could personally tell everyone how grateful I am for their support during this time in my life but I never realized till now how many people cared. A special thanks to my soccer team who dealt with my rage on the field tonight and gave me huge hugs after we won 6 to 1.

I also had another thing happen last night that was really touching. I had a friend realize that this is gods plan for his life not his plan. The even bigger thing was my blog helped him realize this. I really believe this is what god wants for me.

I love you all. Smile.

Brittany
Xoxo

Wanted: My Reflection on the Coming Day

Do you know what it feels like to want to be wanted?

Kinda feeling like that right now. Thursday, when I open my inbox, I hope a "big" envelope is waiting for me. I hope Duke wants me. Who doesn't want to be wanted?

And if the big envelope just doesn't exist for me? Well, I'll be crushed, not gonna lie. I've worked for this moment for years now. 

 

But let's face reality, I'll be over it in a day or two. It isn't gonna be the end of my existence or the world. I've been accepted in some of the top schools. I have a bright future ahead of me and a top notch education waiting for me. I'll be happy anywhere and i'll do great anywhere. (am I trying to convince myself or you guys...?)

No, but, seriously, the duration between November and now has really helped me come to terms with what is meant to be will be. It has also helped me see things clearly.

I'm excited, but prepared. I admit I had a fighting shot. I have it all. My SAT scores aren't the greatest... But I had a chance. I also admit I do not believe I will get in. I hope I can tell you different on Thursday. But until then, I plan on not emotionally investing myself and wading out this dreadful wait.

Much love,

Brittany

Xoxo

Spill the Beans Already!

5 Days until I leave for spring break!
3 Days until I hear back from Duke!
27 Days until I turn 18!!! (read below)
40 Days until my first final exam!

Yesterday, in the mail, I received my voter registration card. This is super exciting for me because, this year, I will be able to vote. Crazy, right?!?! Everything seems to be happening so quickly and the days are flying by. I can't even believe that there is less than 3 months left till graduation!

I won my third scholarship! It was worth $500, but I have a chance at $1,500 after writing an essay. I will be going to dinner with the committee on April 12th. I now have earned $1,600 for college (that makes $43,000 more I have to pay....). So exciting.

This week, in less than a day or two, I read the entire Hunger Games. And I saw the movie. While I really enjoyed the plot of the book, I was sad to see it turned into more of a romance... I do recommend for everyone to read it. The book was definitely better than the movie. The movie rushed character development where as the book made the characters have depth, made them complex, and more life-like. I am starting on the second book soo we will see. 

In my game last night, we kicked butt and beat Northern Vance 3 to 1 points. Check out Coach Hunters blog later in the week for a play by play. While at the game, I got to talking with one of my teammates, and she expressed her impending sadness about not having soccer next year at this time because of college. It really hit me that this is my last year and to fully enjoy it. We have an awesome team, which I have probably overly stressed. All of the players I feel close to and we care for each other, like sisters. It is a special bond with amazing talent that I have never seen in all four years of playing in high school. Although I am excited for Senior Night, I will really miss these girls.

Thursday at approximately 6 pm, I will receive my decision from Duke. At this time, I will be in the middle of a soccer game so I won't truly know until I get home. It has really been bugging me to know all week now that it has been "decided". I honestly don't believe I will get in, but more on that tomorrow. (Can you believe I have already written tomorrow post???)

Till  Then,
 Brittany xoxo

Cheers! Party! Celebration!!!

So,

This is gonna be short, sweet, and straight to the point because I am nasty and sweaty from my game (and personally, I don't prefer to be like that...).

ONE!!! My soccer team won their first conference game today. It was a complete shut out. We played awesome and looked awesome!

Two!! I won my second scholarship!! It was regionally so I got $100 (hey, but every little bit counts!) and I get to go to states. It is the Florence Kidder Memorial Scholarship. The essay was based on history so I am very surprised I even won. I am not a history person at all. Very grateful!

Like how I used the napkin to block out concealed information? Creative!!

Off to shower!
Brittany xoxo

Just Keep Writing...

It's been a while since I last updated. I am a big believer in negative first and twice as many positives after, so here it goes!

Negative Nellie:
1. Two financial based scholarships are a no go. They were pretty big in size.
2. Carolina will be giving me NO financial aid for next school year. Yeah, that was a big bummer.

Positive Polly:
1. I mailed off two more scholarships today! And mailed out a finalist application for $2,000 on Monday. My odds for the $2,000 looks good (We all know I like Stats, so here it comes....) From last year, the state picks twelve people by branch, Raleigh won two awards and Durham won two! That was the majority from all over the state. Hopefully, I can be in the majority too!
2. Soccer is doing Secret Soccer Buddies (Coach Hunter's Brilliant Idea!). And I LOVE it. When I have a not so great day, I find cheer in the cute notes and sweet gifts. I have an wonderful buddy! And I can't wait to find out who it is at the end of the season!

3. One Tuesday Night, we played Cedar Ridge, our rivals. We, by far, dominated the game (even though the score did not reflect it). We took a ton of shots and our goals were of high quality. I really love this years varsity team. We vibe well together and have a huge amount of talent and potential. If you would like to follow the games closer, check out our coaches blog here:

http://orangehighgirlssoccer.blogspot.com/

4. This week, I have had an abnormal amount of time away from school which has been nice to catch up on sleep. Monday I got to leave at 1ish and today I left at 12ish. I have been feeling awesome and refreshed (yet, tired) health wise and have not had huge headaches which has been a BIG plus. 

Anywho, thank you for the outpouring support and love. It means so much and I greatly appreciate it!

P.S. I am slowly still working on my surprise. Taking a lot of time. 

Love,

Brittany xoxo

Good Things Really Do Happen!

After finding the perfect dress last night, I did not think my week could have gotten any better. I was estatic.

Well, it just got better!!!! And I am not speechless!

I just won the Best Buy Scholarship!!! It is worth $1,000!!! Although it is not a lot of money, it will make a tiny dent in my college cost and it gave me that confidence boost I needed. Makes me feel like filling out 20 some scholarships is actually worth it and that I should keep pushing through, filling out more. Wow... a lot to take in.

Part of this requires me to be "published" or "press released"... Isn't that awesome, kinda?

Brittany xoxo

Counting the days down... It's pure beauty!

One month until I hear from Duke.
One month and 22 days until my birthday (18, whoop, whoop!)
One month and 16 days till Orange's Prom

But in other news, my online school is having a prom and, needless to say, it is going to be far more extraordinary than Orange's Prom. And I would be able to be there with my best friend!!! So, it is exciting.

Guess what is even more exciting?!?! I have finally found my graduation dress. Forget prom dresses. I am absolutely in love. It is perfect in every way and my style in a dress. And most importantly, I feel beautiful in it, like every girl should feel in a killer outfit. So the deal is sealed. I am not revealing what it looks like or which one I chose because I want to be the only one wearing it. Hehehe :)

All week long it has rained. That has sucked because all of my soccer games have been cancelled. This year is going to be awesome. We have a great team and we are definitely in great shape, running 15 miles this week. Our wonderful coach will be blogging about us and I will share that link after the first game!

I apologize for being away from the blog this week. Honestly, writing nightly keeps me focused on the positive going on, keeps me looking forward, and keeps me excited. It is always great to hear someone say, "I read last night and really enjoyed it." Always brightens my day.

Last thing before I sign off, I may just be working on a new project. Time permitting. Get excited! Because hopefully, by next week, I can share it with you!!! 

Brittany xoxox